Friday, July 14, 2006
its going to be a busy 61 days, ill probably update reallly reallly little, anyway this blog's quite pointless. so.
monday was probably one of the happiest days ive had in a long time, long long time. coldplay was amazing. i loved yellow, kingdom come, the scientist, swallowed in the sea..and chris martin is incredibly sexy in this intense deep way and he is an amazing performer, though he looked like he was on drugs most of the time. and he runs really fast and moves around alot, so alot of my pictures were blurry and kinda screwed up haha. AND i think i have amazing pushing skills/shameless skills, because we kinda went in at 7:50 or so (when the concert started at 8) and managed to get to the 2nd row, really near the barrier, at the free standing area. which was very very good cuz i thought we'd stand right at the back and not see anything and i'd be very disappointed because the tickets happen to be $170 haha. explored marina sq raffles city citylink and related areas before that, i think that whole area of singapore is nicer than town. better shopping too :)
the dresser was pretty good, i think adrian pang was amazingly good. but i was so sleepy and tired, and so i didnt go to school on wednesday. school sucks. really. school's making me depressed, as are ct results, i dont know what im going to do to get decent grades for prelims. not just decent, good grades. because i need them for university apps and omg im so lazy and unmotivated and i dont know what im doing.
and again, again. maybe nothing's changed since last year. nothing at all. and i dont like feeling like this. it makes me realise how weak and vulnerable and easily affected i am, and im always like this. so stupid, so silly. shouldnt keep doing this to myself, and making this worse for myself. why am i like this :[
tomorrow will be a better day(i hope), because i have a number of things to look forward to. :)
and please if you dont know anything/ many things, please just dont make assumptions, and even if you do just dont tell them to me. because theyll stay in my head, and ill keep thinking abt them, and the more i do the more they make sense.
sigh, sigh. i want to bury my head in the sand like an ostrich and never resurface :]
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
shib picked a flower @ 11:12 PM
