Monday, July 03, 2006
eeyer i dont believe school is staring tmr. :[ june holidays were refreshing, and happy, and really nice despite the studying or attempts to study and not exactly having as much fun as i had during previous holidays. but june holidays meant spending time with people i really wanted to spend time with, and waking up late and determining what i want to do and planning things for myself, which is rare and almost impossible during school time. particularly the spending time with people that i really want to thing, different classes and circumstances and everything.
even ct week was nice, though i must say that i think ct2s were pretty disastrous. as usual, as usual. its always like that, and its always my fault. because i was far too distracted, and not focusing, and not caring abt cts. which was terrible. and i was too tired and i guess it was kinda too late to do anything properly, really. so im kinda not expecting much, again. but, i really really am going to start planning everything properly. prelims and university application and ultimately a levels are not something that i can just 'try not to care about' like cts, and to put things into perspective, the 12 years of education in this stupid education system ultimately leads to this, and going overseas to somewhere good in the us has been my aim since god knows when, and i know better than to prioritise anything else over this, because i mean its the last few months at all. at least i HOPE i know better, oh no i hope i somehow become extremely hardworking and focused soon. i think ill be scared by my ct grades and have not much of a choice haha. and technically! cts arent even over, since there's hist s on friday, but whatever.
sat2s were alright, kinda around what i expected so that was fine, not sure if ill do 1 or 2 more just for the sake of it, but we shall see. i sound like a mugger so now i shall talk about my post ct activities! :] which have been suitably indulgent and relaxing, and i love my friends tons. dinnered on friday(after lit s, which was HMM but nvm), but couldnt do much else cuz i went to the doctor's to find out why my cough and flu are mysteriously not disappearing. doctor gave me strong asthmatic medicine, which sucked and tastes like shit, but i think im alot better now, or at least i really really hope so. went over to cheryl's and then shiyun's house on saturday, for tanning(which didnt work at all) and lazing around and generally relaxing and talking (: ate alot at a nice seafood place at changi village, got traumatised by flying beetles and cockroaches (esp cheryl ho) along changi beach, so we got scared and ran back to shiyun's house. haha.
sunday was spent at cheryl's with shiyun and abel who was there for most of the night, and jon before that too. watched high sch musical, which depite freaking cheesy dialogue has super nice songs. and is pretty sweet, too. and just my luck which was okay i guess, kinda mind-numbing to watch so much tv, and cherylho forced us to watch METEOR GARDEN, like omg. but it wasnt thattt bad la i admit. but i had fun, love my friends to bits and pieces :] whatever regrets ive had about decisions, or about the way my life is now compared to what it could have been, or anything like that has sorta disappeared, because i like the way things have been for the past month or so (generally) and i wouldnt want to change any of that, especially if post-jc life involves the same people ive been spending alot of time with in june and after. and less studying, of course. and seeing more of people like zul who have been damn busy and so on and so forth.
oh yes, on thursday, despite lit s the next day, went out with the 1e people.they make me laugh so much, haha its a nice feeling (: and scary movie was totally eddy humour, TOTALLY. but post-ct activities should be like that, nonsense humour and all.
ee i still dont believe school is starting, this is really very depressing. but at least there's a bit to look forward too, in coming weeks, and i get to see people again! like moni <3 but haiya, school. nevermind, 3plus more months and this will all be OVER, and that keeps me sane but also freaks me out, tremendously. okay i should attempt to plan my life now.
its the 4th of july tmr! :]
shib picked a flower @ 8:57 PM
