Monday, May 22, 2006
talking to samjo yesterday, and shifting gears, and well alot of things really make me realise that they are people in my life who love me alot and will always be there for me, and i dont thank them and appreciate them enough. and i really should. and not constantly focus on the negatives in my life like some angsty teenager because there's so much to be grateful for. :)
shifting gears went pretty well, i think both plays were v good :] sad to end the last thing id be doing for rp on a..strange note. ah well. its true that what you put in=what you get out, really. went to liquid kitchen with random people after that, cheryl jerrine jade shiyun jon&friend abel evie.. yup. was feeling kinda grr-ish and angsty, but food= :] speaking of which, thankyou for peanutbutter brownie, pleasantly surprised that they were not only edible but nice haha.
qaf is ending soon :( then there's nothing to make me happy. a few more episodes of the last season, and the one i watched was damn sad. damn saddd. but then there's the oc now (thank you glen) so that can keep me happy for a while except there are a few more episodes till the season ends. ive run out of websites to surf, and online shopping isnt quite as appealing anymore, and i dont really feel like talking to anyone online, and im bored of spider solitaire. which means. no more excuses not to study. about time, anyway.
parents teachers meeting was surprisingly safe, even ms lui said nice things about me, and some teachers were extra nice. though i hope theyre actually being sincere and not just politically correct. but mr mac told mrs perry to tell my mum i havent handed in my heart of darkness essay :( tmr will be spent with my notes and my computer, typing essays. whee so exciting. end of term means 4 weeks of studying for common tests. woohoo. but i hate school, and actually sometimes i just feel like rotting at home. except hopefully ill actually study.
its weird, how i keep going in circles. moving further back, and i havent changed much. what i feel never really changes much. ever. the same thoughts are always there. but sometimes you just feel like giving up and learning to let go and realising there's no point trying, and trying. and your efforts are better spent elsewhere. such as studying, or on other people. other people who'd appreciate it more perhaps.
ah, my rolly readings lie unhighlighted. :( where is mugger shib pls return PLS, in time for SAT2s and common tests. this year is so fricking overwhelming, really. in a few months its byebye singapore education system byebye a levels and everything and hmm. sigh. i feel weird now. :
shib picked a flower @ 11:40 PM
