because we all have dreams

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i am feeling more and more angsty and emo as the minutes pass. the more i think about things and talk about things, the more things seem to be a big complicated mess. yesterday i cam home, and tried to blog. i opened this page and thought for a very long time about what to type, and i couldnt think of anything. i just felt like a mess of emotions and confused thoughts. i guess the phonecall after that helped a little, thank you monisha and gs for keeping me occupied with thoughts which are seperate from my own problems and confusions. i guess dinner and studying after school helped too, in a way(or not). everything is so strange, and weird. and i know im being silly, stupid, useless, hopeless and everything, i know that im making myself more confused. but i like things the way they are, all the same. i'd rather have things like this, anyway. so. whatever. :] and about other issues, not caring is really the only way to stay sane. i realise that in jc i have become alot more unconcerned about alot of things, or at least i try to be, if not i will really just die. and it was sad yesterday when i was thinking what(or rather, who) is actually going to stay with me after the two years of jc, other than a level grades and all that. ah well.

pw results are released tmr. hahahaha. a level schedule is out already. teachers are giving more and more work and while ive been alot more productive than usual, there's still so much to do and sometimes i just feel like listening to music, writing and emo-ing. like what i did on sunday and half of monday. and wasted alot of time, but oh well.

i miss the roadrunners, still. thank you abel, for listening to me complain rant and giving advice and stuff, today and all the time. :] thank you evie, i <3 you v much. thank you junsheng for telling me to 'just go and die lor'. haha. and to cheryl for nice company on sunday night :) and bestfriend! the world is a cruel place. blah. but i still love you!

I hope you are learning to listen
And I hope you are learning to stay
And I hope you find what you are missing
And I hope you're making your way

shib ~~picked~~ a flower @ 9:51 PM