Tuesday, March 28, 2006
i have decided to make conscious, committed attempts to reform my attitude towards work. econs and math in particular. i dont want to drop i dont want! i must really work alot harder for math, though i havent gotten back the results considering that there are 5 Fs and 4 Os i am 100% certain i lie somewhere within that range. boo. econs, well, i could have done (much) better but considering the effort i put it and my aptitude i guess i will settle for a Disgusting D. haha. international history was a pleasant surprise- quite a safe B and considering i really hardly studied ih and was smoking throughout the paper and thought i would get a borderline B or worse, i am veryvery relieved. i hope my euro hist doesnt fail me, rolly please be nice to me. thats all for common test results, for now.
and i realise that all the bullshit nonsense drama and sagas around me really do not matter to me as much as my results. i never thought id say this but even with everything around me, which trust me, is horrendous, 4 As (HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION, btw) will make me damn happy. tremendously. EXTREMELY. even my ih today made me rather happy, even though it wasnt anything near spectacular but i was relieved. and i realised that even if everything around me was perfect and wonderful, 4Fs or even 4 Os or 4 Es will make me very sad. so i will focus my energies on something useful and positive, such as academics and making people i love happy. i quote glen, 'life is too short to waste on people who dont really give a shit abt you'. so people who make me happy are wonderful and the rest should just disappear in siberia. :]
to you; please cheer up i have full faith in you and your abilities so please do too, because i know when it really matters you are going to do brilliantly and your future is going to be bright and wonderful and you are so not a failure okay! so please be happy, please? :]
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to you; YOU! 'attachment is weakness'! remember okay? remember! i love you very much and you and i will get though this together okay? flcb sucks! :] <3 <3
and JUNSHENG, i love you very much thanks for making me anticipate school with much excitement tmr. :]
AND! happy belated birthday chere :] :] may your days be filled with happiness and hamster-ey goodness haha.
shib picked a flower @ 11:56 PM
