Thursday, February 09, 2006
every blog i read, everyone who i talk, regardless of school class or whatever, to seems to be dying from j2. from the mountain of work and the insane schedules and everything else. j2 is really turning out to be horrible, in too many ways. and im so tired, i hardly feel like going to sch. i never feel like dragging myself out of bed every morning. other than s papers sometimes. and dfeste.
speaking of dfeste, im having more fun than i imagined. i love the cast + jade and nav, extremely like minded people. people who ive had alot of fun with last year like jon and yam and also people who im getting to know alot better like gaoshen and joel and monisha, isabella, shawn and justina. its nice to end days with rehearsals and card games and nice dinners and alot of rubbish and laughter. and of course gautam is always there to provide a nice outlet for insults :] today was particularly fun, with joel wearing the rj uniform and then gaoshen wearing the rg one and walking arnd the canteen, entering the female toilet, etc. very very very funny. i wish i had my camera :( then a nice dinner at fish&co. after, which was nice. swordfish collar looks like kfc but it tastes goood. jade almost walked into the male toilet. sigh my bimbo director is embarrassing. haha. and interesting revelations too.
today was marginally better than other days i suppose. because of dramafeste, and less lessons. 1b decided to wear our secondary sch uniforms, and i was a st nics girl for a day since i lost my cedar uniform. elaine and candice BOTH kindly informed me that there were no indians in st nics which explains why i looked strange in the uniform haha. charles definitely attracted the most attention, as a cat high boy. its alot better pretending to be a j1. nothing matters so much when youre in j1. i wish it were last year. :(
it was rolly's birthday too. we gave him alot of things. like the aston villa jersey with 'rolly' at the back and a book on lola montez and the cake and the banner. i think i think too much. but isnt it unfair? i cant imagine us doing this for mr kwok.. or ms lui.. and i mean i felt sort of guilty. the whole western fixation thing. like we are preserving the mindsets that were present during colonial times. and btw i am including myself in the 'i'. but of course rolly kinda does deserve it, i guess. he is funny and really,really charismatic.
reading the bell jar scares me. i seem to be feeling an overdose of teenage angst recently. though i really hate that phrase, so more like overdose of emo-ness. i think i should just be mechanical and not think too much about the point of all of this and just.. go for classes rehearsals auditions meetings s papers and go home. and then maybe id be happier. it seems to selfish, focusing on my stupid little pathetic life and complaining and whining and brooding and everything when people have problems which are so much.. more. so much bigger.
to all the j1s getting their results tmr! all the best <3 esp to aisha fatima auds manpreet, people in my og if you guys are reading this, and isabella and monisha for higher chinese! i want my marmalade pantry treat!! :]
hopefully saturday will be fun. rehearsals and then the party at fareastsq, and cheryl's sleeping over. its been so long since ive had proper sort of fun, like clubbing and sleepovers and stuff. and ive missed it. then sunday comes along and ill realise i have essays and math and a ton of work to finish up and another week of school, horrible horrible school to get through.
and eddy, happy 18th (though im an hour early) ! <3!
shib picked a flower @ 10:26 PM
