Tuesday, October 18, 2005
so thats that then. all the results are back. A B C O. the A's for lit, B for history, C for econs and O for math. big surprise for the math yup? hurhur.
cant say im pleased. cant say im devastated. but ah well. ive been in a sort of low self esteem mode for quite a while because of promo results. and the thing is i know i could have done better for everything there. yup everything. though ive improved alot (okay well consistent for the history and math), still i feel horribly disatisfied with my marks. but then again. ill probably not have been happy even with better marks so whatever im just a very ungrateful person haha. okay im getting rambly.
but basically im rather okay with my marks. for the effort i put in, i guess i shouldnt expect much more. there's the qn of s paper now. quite honestly i want to drop math and do lit and history s. but i wont do that, because its a stupid thing to do (but math is such a fcked up subject. seriously. its disgusting.). so ill chose between the two. tough choice, but i think im more leaning toward history. i feel happier in history lessons (maybe cuz i <3 rolly and kwok, though in v different ways) and even though i love perry and mcc is damn good, somehow history appeals to me more. and im more confident. i didnt even take lit in seconday school? but ill decide soon enough. i would have wanted 2 s papers to be honest but its not very sensible to do two s papers with lousy marks i should work on the math. and econs doesnt interest me as much as the other two, but i still like it. i dont know. what has become of my blog. i talk abt results and work. constantly. (because my life is dreadfully boring)
before i forget. i think abel waileong joel samjo and gavin are totally amazing and so deserve their marks. of course people like janice shang etc but the above people are more normal and less super-genius. and they did really well and they totally deserve it. the kind of people you feel genuinely happy for when they do well so congrats, in all sincerity :] sympathies to people like mark and chas and denise who didnt do as well as expected particularly for math (yes that pain in the ass subject again), you all please smile okay (: evie lets work harder for math. haha.
sometimes its sad when you realise you dont mean half as much to a person as the person means to you. and when you realise your actions dont really impact them as much as the efforts and thought behind those actions.
some people are very scary. the intentions behind their actions are so dubious and so conflicting and so very strange and hard to interpret. and! some people never change. from secondary school. people dont learn lessons =/
busy busy rehearsals open house and all. im supposed to be busking for open house on top of being a befriender haha, very funny (:
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