Thursday, October 13, 2005
as far as i could i tried to avoid emo entries on this blog. so i shall try that yet again.
a very eventful day in school. alot of results, of all kinds. and alot of disgusting events and squeal-ish events and nice moments. blend-ish.
about results. basically, im disappointed. its not that i did badly, at all. but its just. average. so average. got back history and gp. if anything i expect my best grades from history. and if thats the best then im very scared abt the other papers. history is the subject i want to take s paper for, the subject that most matters to me. of course from what rolly said and all the comments and what he said when he gave me my paper, i think the s paper thing shouldnt be much of a prob? considering the entire years work. and not thinking abt other subjects (coughMATHcough). but still it sucks. not that i really expected an A. i dont know but it still sucks. and its not even a very strong B. not a very weak one though. see, average. :( i know these are the kind of things you read on blogs and feel like slapping people, as i did after common tests while blog surfing (no names mentioned :) ) but really i cant help it :(
as for the gp, average too. probably not on the whole scale of things. but in 1b average. i mean its okay, gp's well..alright la. A is still an A even if its an A2 im quite pleased i guess. but there's always this feeling that one can do better. so we are never satisfied. sorta reminds me of the samjo conversation in the canteen with evie. that humans are always greedy and never satisfied with what they have, even in death. haha well probably.
speaking of samjo, he and i and jon got into press corps, which is good and unexpected. now hmun will have some purpose. its really unexpected, given the 15 people in the world thing. and also i wrote the application in the night in a rush. but this makes me very happy (: press corps was really the obvious choice, i think since people asked me the qn "what do you wanna be when you grow up" the answer was always a awriter or a journalist. based solely on interest, skills or lack thereof aside. so press corps is seriously the most wonderful stepping stone. and working with samjo again! drama night rehearsals have been damn fun actually, haha. i like being gainfully occupied instead of rotting away, spending money shopping. but shopping is still <3 <3. and yes jon too (: but stef and eddy :( nvm you too make friends and stay away from certain not fat people.
squealish things, though imagined and exaggerated, make me happy, if nothing else. :D
shib picked a flower @ 10:00 PM
