Sunday, September 04, 2005
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i have just broke another resolution. i resolved not to blog till aft promos. haha man, who am i kidding. i think i broke more than half of the "shibani's reforms" that i wrote down and aspired to keep to. and i will break some more after promos. because i have zero willpower. but as mavis said, keeping to them would probably make me a monk. but im improving! at least the amount that ive been studying. still very dismal, but hey anything from zero is good isnt it.
new blog pic. thanks to jon. THANKYOU. but it distracted me when i was diligently trying to finish reading crisis of communism lecture notes. which were unsurprisingly, totally clean and unhighlighted and as good as new before this afternoon.
since my mum and sister have deserted me to go on a nice weekend trip in penang, this has been a lonely, highly unproductive weekend with alot and alot and alot of sleep. and sgselltrade/gap/vs/a&f/yahoo auctions/ebay browsing. and writing and late night musings. and self-reflecting, i guess.
realised that it will be my birthday soon. this because of mavis' blog. a bit early huh mavis? haha but thank you, me loves you (: i am totally clueless on what i should do to celebrate. frankly for the past two years, my birthday hasnt been exactly happy, it always seems to be at a very bad timing or something particularly bad seems to happen. and i doubt this year will be much different, really. it being so close to promos and dinika going back to america on my bday. again. ah well. its just a date anyway.
hopefully tmr will be more productive. og mug session! or at least the usual bunch, eve jermie zixi joel and ben. at esplanade library. definitely my favouritest place to study in the world. the beautiful view, the amazing cds that you can borrow and listen, the comfy couches at the far end which gets all quiet and deserted at night, the view at night, the dance studio-ish place, and of course the memories of going there with yisha pre-prelims and o's. and with a bunch of people who ive missed tooo much. and my twinstomach (: (though i think ive grown too fat for that to still be relevant now)
i think, im trying to convince myself that i am the person i want to be. that i feel the way i want to feel. so much so that im supressing a part of myself and i feel like im torturing myself by not admitting alot of things, to myself, to the people around me. and that just leaves me very confused. ahh i dont know what im talking about. again.
ill be the happiest girl in the world on the 8th of september. THE OC SEASON 3! omg omg. -hyperventilates. God bless bittorrent (:
There's no one left to finger
There's no one here to blame
There's no one left to talk to, honey
And there ain't no one to bar our innocence
'Cause we are born innocent
Believe me Adia, we are still innocent
It's easy, we all falter
Does it matter?
shib picked a flower @ 8:49 PM
